All posts for the month October, 2010

Published October 19, 2010 by Soprano, Megan

“When you get into a tight place and everything goes against you, till it seems as though you could not hold on a minute longer, never give up then, for that is just the place and time that the tide will turn.”

– Harriet Beecher Stowe

I’ve never been one for quotes, but I’ve discovered just how much they can inspire you when you’re going through a tough time. I found the above one when I was going through some tough times with my music therapy internship and it seemed like everything and everyone was conspiring against me. Now when ever I’m down, I read it and remind myself that things HAVE to get bad before they can get good. This goes with anything.

I passed this quote on to my best friend yesterday after a long, tearful chat with her. I consider this friend two be my “sister” so when she hurts, I hurt too. I couldn’t sum up in one neat package the words she needed to hear so I passed along ‘ol Harriet’s quote. Anything to ease a friends pain.

Now I’m stuck in my own tough place. This time with my health. Having a mother to worry about me doesn’t help the situation and the fact that something serious could be going on enters my mind hourly during the day. Still, I continue to hold the mentality that  “tomorrow will be better” and that there are people out there who are worse off than myself. That seems to keep me going. That, and the fact that “the tide will turn”.

One thing that really irritates me is people who complain about THEIR life being the most busy and awful and terrible and working 40 hours a week is just so tiring. Well, you see, I work roughly 35 hours a week (because I have no choice), I go to school full-time, and I take voice lessons on top of all that. So don’t try and make it seem like your situation is the worst in the world because there are people out there who have it a lot worse. I just can’t begin to imagine and I pity the person who does more than I do!

But with that all being said, I try to remind myself that what I’m doing right now will make my life better in the long-run. I know for a fact it will. I’m just hanging on for dear life and hoping someone comes with a life preserver reallllllllllly soon!

Thanks, Ms. Beecher Stowe, for your continued inspiration.


Just another hiccup, another cough, and one more sneeze.

Published October 16, 2010 by Soprano, Megan

One of the VERY worst things you can have happen to you when you’re a vocalist is to get sick. I’m not talking stomach sick or headache, even, but full-on laryngitis or in my particular case – Pneumonia.It really is hard to stay healthy too. Especially when it seems you have the immune system of a compromised patient.

For the past four years I was dealing with MAJOR sinus issues. I had two cysts in my maxillary sinuses (in your cheeks!) about 1.5 cm in diameter. I was on antibiotics practically every day until, three ENTs later, one finally answered my cries of desperation. I had the surgery (not without its complications of course!) and I’ve been perfect [knock on wood] ever since.

Well. Flash back two weeks ago or so. I start to get that scratchy (what I call “whiny”) throat and think “great…all I need is a head cold now”. It wasn’t just a head cold. It was Pneumonia. That, to a singer, is like a death sentence. Maybe you think I’m being dramatic, as it is in my nature as a performer, but this meant absolutely NO singing until it was gone. It has now been two weeks and so far I have:

1. Taken TWO kinds of antibiotics simultaneously
2. Taken sleeping pills because the coughing kept me up at night
3. Missed THREE voice lessons, one being with my accompanist
4. Missed a lesson with a MUN faculty member
5. Had to stay out of school for two weeks (which really means two months work!)
6. Was supposed to stay off work, but ignored it…and shouldn’t have…
7. Taken other countless medications such as inhalers, steroids, and cough syrup
8. Had to “shut-up” (no easy task for me!)
9. Wished I’d die.

With that all being said. I am FINALLY on the mend! But with feeling better comes the scary realization that I have to catch up on work, practice, school and life in general.I’ve also started taking Vitamin D in an attempt to boost my immune system while my doctor figures out why I am always the victim of illness lately. Half of me hopes he will find something. Half of me is afraid of what he might find.

But as they say – “The show MUST go on!”…

The long and winding road…

Published October 15, 2010 by Soprano, Megan

I haven’t blogged in what seems like eons and I was missing it to be quite honest.

Nothing in my life has changed. I’m still painfully single after an awkward 7ish months with someone who turned out they only wanted to be friends. Such is life. I am better off. I’m sure someone will come along soon…won’t they??

This blog is essentially going to be about my journey into Grad School. I will be applying to do a Master of Music in Vocal Performance next year. I haven’t decided if I want the pedagogy part yet. We’ll see…I have to get my foot in the door first!

I have been fortunate to find an awesome voice teacher, Maya, who has opened my eyes to things I never would have imagined. I am also going to big lessons with one of the MUN profs next week or the week after. Hopefully she can give some more insight into my singing and make it even better.

Getting in to do my Masters would just be a true dream come true. Never in my wildest dreams would I have told you 10 years ago for music and you would have believed me. It is truly amazing what life can cause us to take on.

Money has been a big issue. Come May I will be a qualified music teacher and will be able to teach where I want basically. Why is that not enough? THis yearning for wanting to better myself is now on my mind 24/7.  I feel there is SO much more for me to learn and to through it down would simply be a shame.

For now I’m going to dare to dream the impossible and I am not stopping until it happens for me. I feel this is right and this is the only right thing in my life right now!

Here is a quote that I try to force myself to say every single day…

“When a dream takes hold of you, what can you do? You can run with it, let it run your life, or let it go and think for the rest of your life about what might have been.”

There are not false words in that statement. There is nothing more heart breaking than wanting something so badly, but not having the courage to actually do it. I don’t want this in my life and I believe I am destined to better thing…only time will tell Im afraid…